unspoken thoughts

bear wif me

ok2 so i thot that now is the exam fever, amat jarangla aku akan bukak blog ini. tapi terbalik plak jadi nya. i mean, waktu exam week, all activities stop, u dun meet people, u just curled up in your books, and u'll only see people waktu nk masuk exam hall. hehe the other day, i heard some irish girl shouting outside my window calling out her friend:

"omg, you're still alive!!"

well, i guess exam week is one of the loneliest time u can be.for me that is. its like living in another world. but i can cope that. for now

owh and waktu skrg yg relatively tak busy ni la, aku mula pk byk bende. hehe dun wory, not bad stuff. just the things that i think might become problems later on. well u know i have this knack for worrying too much. hence i try not to procrastinate things so that i know it won't bother me later. i guess living the life on the fast lane keeps my mind on the focus. so it indeed has its advantages. i guess. so jgnla terkejut knape la aku try libatkan diri dlm byk bende kat cni ie. isoc, fosis, puisi, anak angkat prog etc..

i have a few burdens on my mind that i think i dunno who i should share it with. eyh jgn silap paham pulak, i hav loads of friends. and they're all great. seriously. cuma i think not all them know all and everything about me. and kdg2 i feel that i shouldnt burden someone else with all my rants. and well partly sebab aku sendiri try to isolate certain things about myself. ye ke? haish! why i'm i doing this to myself? dok pikiaq sorang2 smpi takle focus on other things. mcm attempt to commit suicide. astaghfirullah..

tp hanya Allah yg tahu hati ini. Dia maha mengetahui apa yang sedang aku lalui dan apa yang bakal dihadapi. at times like this i feel like crying tapi ntah a part of me says that i shud be strong. the other day i cried when i heard mama's voice kat skype. spontaneously i cried. masa sigining in skype i was all in smiles. dgr je suara mama, terus kelua airmata. alhamdulilah they're coming over next week. i could use someone to talk to. i really need to..

posted by || intan || @ 7:28:00 PM