unspoken thoughts

sayunya aidilfitri

salam aidilfitri buat semua!! berlalunya ramadhan almubarak dtgnya bulan syawal yg mulia.ntah knape mmg seronok raya ni but this year punya raya rasa sedih sgt.tak taula kenapa.this morning my first solat hari raya in clonskeagh mosque.i saw ramai muslimin and muslimat dtg.different colour skins but one faith.mmg suasana sini lain la dgn kat malaysia.here baju2 raya not as colourful as in malaysia [sometimes i wonder komuniti Islam kat sini ada ke beriye2 buat baju raya] but obviously bulan ramadhan kat sini mereka menghayati sgt2la.

knape rasa sedih sgt2 ramadhan ni? in the morning, psg webcam and talk over YM dgn famili kat msia.uwaaa bestnya dah raya kat sana!! sedih2.. lama jugakla online dari subuh sehingga around 800am [sbb nk get ready for masjid]

then, solat hari raya started at around 1030am [lambat kan? but bestla pergi masjid ramai2 dgn kwn2 di pagi raya] and then we rushed back to ucd for our lecture at 11am [sempat je tapi kena duduk depan dgn baju kurung berkaler2] dahle tak paham lecture tu sbb ntah.mood raya kot.plus tak sempat print notes prior to the lecture. and then i had to skip the next lecture just to go for my patient visit at her home. i think the only time i wasnt sad was masa patient visit tu.bestla borak2 wif my irish partner and had tea+chatting with the irish patient. pelat diorang sgtla pekat but alhamdulilah dpt tgkpla ape diorng cakap. why visiting patients on raya? sbb ni case kerja last minute! esok kena submit report pasal this patient and today baru nk jumpa dia padahal dah dpt patient contact details dah 3 minggu dah!! korang jgnla jadi mcm aku ni..

so right sfter patient visit rush2 balik rumah sbb zohor nak habis waktu [alhamdulilah sempat solat,terus solat asar skali] penat!! then i had to use the time i had left nak study for exam that night at 830pm.dahle biochemistry and masuk 20% of final semester!! so pagi raya dgr lecture dgn blurnya, tengah hari raya duduk chatting2 dgn patient, petang raya rushing around and duduk menghadap buku.. malam raya duduk dlm hall buat exam yg mmgla memeningkan huhu.. dahle buat exam kat luar ucd.had to take the bus to get there.lepas exam pulak terlepas bas yg cepat balik ke ucd.unfortunately i smpi kat rumah blk at around 1030pm.report on patient visit tak buat lagi.. dahle lapar tak mkn dinner lagi huhu mmg sedih. suasana raya yg dirasai hanyalah pd waktu pagi ketika dgr takbir kat masjid tu..

la tahzan intan!! insyaAllah esok akan jadi lebih baik dari hari ini. now i need my beauty sleep.had red eyes prior to my exam tadi.ntah knape mungkin nk nangis tapi menahan air mata..

posted by || intan || @ 12:05:00 AM